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>> #np angel

Hey dear,

Already 2 in the morninggggg

but here I am....still staring at my notebook's screennnn

Tomorrow have to record presentation for one of the subject

Day after tomorrow, BAKSIS.. one of my Ko-k subject =,=

so..leave that alone

urmm...how should I say

I'm scared with my own feeling ?

I'm scared that I can't fall for someone else

I'm scared that I could not afford to fall in love

I've tried for numerous times, try to act like normal people do

but I can't... why???

why ?

why ?

because of him

because he is too kind

he is too precious

I know... I.. FOREVER can't have him

I know that

but he like...holding something inside me

that I can't afford to let it go

I know, I am being crazy at 2 in the morning

but that is the biggest things that dwell inside me right now

I'm scared

it is okay ?? me...acting like this ???
i mean, can't afford to let him go ???

feel like crying right now

i seem can't differentiate between reality and fantasy..sheesh