merlin

I'll come here when I'm feeling down
why?you've end this semester..well without final yet of course
but yeahh..I'm feeling down with everything. .especially with my talent n skill.
I sometime wondering if I have talent or skill to do something.
I'm idiot, okay..that is half true. ha ha..idk whether I have courage to face this coming sem..next sem will be more tougher than this sem. =..=
so....I don't have any courageous to face it..I'm a loser...and I know it..ngaaaaa

and why merlin? because at least he has a gift (talent) and he know what to do with his gift.no?

I don't want to talk

You see, maybe I was just thinking too much..but I'm a human
i sometime feel like I have no value to other people.
do I help them? did I do that right? what if I said smthg rude?
I am so helpless..I'm bad in everything. I'm not intelligent but I feel grateful bcoz I can study at here till now. I have no brilliant ideas.
I cannot help people even thought my name's meaning is helping. ha ha.

Everyday, things like feeling insecure always there. feeling like u have no value to other people. I dont know if this is a kind of disease. but I try to endure it. but sometimes I have my limit..feeling so fragile. but I have no one to trust, to tell my true feeling bcoz I feel insecure, what if they left me, what if they feel annoying with me.
but nas.. if u said that u have no one to trust. what about Allah? u have Him in whatever situations. yes.. I know.. but im not too "baik". Subuh pon boleh terlepas. honestly my iman is not too strong..it can sway easily. I know I need to invest my time in akhrawiah things.. ok I have too much alasan. if u want, do it. stupid nas. yeah thats me.

I am thinking too much till I feel suffocating. why u need to be like this nasirah T____T