ring the bell

Good day!

So.. Umm, I'm married.. Hahhahaha.. Hard to believe. But yeah.. Get married on August 2021. Since it's during MCO, so we just do intimate wedding, without kenduri of course.. So that's it 😂

Param

Seriously I need something like this.. Miss  the smell of sea.. Hope got the chance soon.

Bubble

Hi....

So.. Actually it has been a year after my last post huh.. this year, I'm already 29 y.o. Ha ha

Yeah yeah.. I'm old and still single. 

So this is some story i want to keep at here. 

There this one guy. I knew him from my friend. It's actually his sister want to find someone for him. So decided to make we 'date' and get 'married'. So he contacted me last year.. Its been 1 year we known each other.. But to say that we known each other is too much. Hahaha. Because... I stopped him from making his mother came to our house.. Because I'm being honest to him that i didn't want to get married yet for this time being. And i said that I'm okay if he has someone else and want to get married. I just don't want him to wait for me. 

And to be honest... I still don't have any feeling for him.. I don't know why.. I hate for being like this. But i cannot force my heart. There was so many times I've told him that please don't wait for me, and find someone else.. But he still text me.. For you, you might think, i should just get married to him cause he wait for me.. But it's a feeling.. I don't have that. I feel sorry for him. I don't know what i should do. 

Oreo

Hi,

So... I decided to dump my feelings here.
So here the situation, I just bought something, so I bought it by myself, from the start till the end, but after gone through everything with the processes, suddenly people asked me "did they gave you this, did they gave you that" I was like, the f was that? I didn't know anything bout that, when I bought them, you guys didn't asked me bout this neither help me with the process.. Then, do you expect I knew EVERYTHING?? No.. I don't know. And right now, I don't want to know at all cause I've finished everything, and aldy got that thing, so how do you expect me to ask something that's already past?

I don't want to understand this shit anymore, I just.. Don't tell me something that has already PAST.. It just make me feel like "am I being cheated?" 🙄🙄🙄

And... That's all.. Hahahha.... I just need some place where I can type in long sentences 😂😂

Hi?

Dear myself,

I need something to miss, so, decided to come here. After almost a year, didn't post anything. Ha ha
A lot of things happened during this one year gap..

So rn I'm aldy on my 3rd job with same scope😂😂 well many ups and down, but still breathing and all is well.

Going through some hard phase where you need to think everything that is going on in your life. And how I wish I can stay as a kid forever. Well.. It's just a "I wish" 💁‍♀️

Sometime can't believe that I was aldy reaching some phase where you need to do all the things by yourself without your parents help (well I do still asked my parents though 😂😂)

I just hope that I found myself a job that I will be comfortable for the rest of my life.

Also a partner that will go ups and down with me. Accept for who I am.

It is not that I hate marriage, and I know there is no time where you will feel ready for marriage, but at least, I need to have this "yes, it's okay to get married now cause I feel at least ready right now" feel.

And I have this habit where, when you start to have someone and having serious conversations and all, I feel like want to back off and like, is this what I want? Is this the right time? Is he the right one (though i don't have anyone to begin with) 🤣🤣

So... That's all what I want to say. Cause I'm bored😂

👋👋

Eid Mubarak & Work

Evening guys,

I thought my latest post aldy posted, but I guess it's not?
Well forget it, anyway Happy Eid Mubarak to all who celebrating it.
Firstly, I got a new job even though I didn't resign yet from my current work. This new job's scope is the same as my current job. It's just that, I need to have strong mental and physical to work for this job as I need to travel A LOT and need to confront people with different level like yeah, everything you do, everyone will know and watch. so yeahh..have strong mental.ha ha

Hope I can do well for this new job as I want to challenge myself whether I could work in this kind of work or not. Whether my mental is strong or not. Whether my work can be recognize or not. So that, I can feel satisfied in my life even though this work might not compatible to me. And other reason would be money.kah kah! This work might look easy but it's not. It really need a mountain of patience as you need to confront many people with different level, age and country.

I really2 hope I can work for this job for a long time.

Please pray for me for whoever pass by my old blog. LOL

Thats it.

Regards,
Nas =)

intern>work

Greetings to no one,

Intern = Done
Work = Start

I feel grateful even that job is not permanent, but at least, after finishing my internship, I can work. Work means I can save money, money means I can pay my loans. ha ha..Thats my  life cycle. After study, u pay loan.. =..=

Actually, the work that I mention earlier didn't hit me yet. I mean, yeah, that day I just went to the iv which was at my internship place, then taraaa, u got that job which was 3 days before u finished your internship. I was like...what?I mean, I didn't prepared at all, I just brought my certificates because the staff told us to. and thats all..like 20 mins before the iv, I just memorized something that need to be in the manual, like 10 words? just 10 WORDS. Me getting that job, I feel so lucky and grateful, I just hope that I didn't mess up that work and work for a year at least until I get a new job. I mean Permanent job.

Anyway, I just hope everything will goes smoothly